From Osho:

You see the people-they are miserable because they have compromised every point, and they cannot forgive themselves because they have compromised. They know they could have dared, but they proved cowards. In their own eyes they have fallen,
they have lost self-respect. That's what compromise does. ~Osho~

Honesty on Steroids!

My partner wrote the following paragraphs on his OKCupid profile.

Notice:

I make no attempt to sell myself to anyone. I do not present any filtered profile or contrived photos as an advertisement or marketing attempt to get sex or a date or snag a partner. My purpose is to accurately and proudly proclaim what I believe and who I am. If you don't agree, or you don't feel comfortable with me, or don't like me, then move on and find a more conventional kinda guy, whom I'm sure will make you happer!

Further, don't waste your time reading further if the only reason you are here is that you are loooking for your lifelong monogamous spiritual partner!

Also, you probably won't like me if you are otherwise uptight and narrow minded about relationships and sexuality.

And also, if you are browsing anonymously, shame on you. Have you really been so brainwashed by Republicans that you are in imminent danger from terrorists, scam artists, thiefs, lecherous men, stalkers, immorality, Muslims, and liberals and that you better assume (that by default) everyone is out to get you and you protect yourself by hiding in the shadows?

OK; now I can continue with the few of you remaining.

I have a primary partner in a poly relationship. I am free to have other lovers without cheating, sneaking, lying, tricking, hiding, etc.

More Compost

How could it be possible that I am in a place in my life when I want my most significant relationship to be with compost? Right now, I feel that compost is more important to me than anything else.

And so here, where I am living in a place of seclusion from community, my only responsibility is to carry the kitchen scraps down to the compost bin. This is my passion. Even though I may never see the fruits of next summer's crops, I feel connected to the harvest before the earth is thawed or the seeds are germinated.

Some days, the sun shines. But today, everything is grey. I feel grey. Like Anne in London's blog posting, I can understand that there is no need to be gay on a grey day. But in this grey of late winter, I feel the swelling of life. The expectation of something new. The excitement and expectation of transformation during this time of transition.

Composting

There is something magical about walking through the snow, carrying a full compost pail to the bins on the property. It is late winter. Snow and below freezing temperatures still hug the rural areas of these regions of North America. This morning's fresh snowfall reveals the day's visitors' tracks: bunnies, birds and countryside mice and shrews. The tops of the bare trees were illuminated by the sun which was setting; the sun was already sinking into the horizon. I savored the warmth of the glow, even though I could feel the windchill coming from the snow.

I didn't have a nervous break down. That would require an extended hospital stay. It would have required pharmaceuticals and meetings with a therapist. A nervous breakdown would have made my life more complicated and more stressful.

Instead, one morning, I walked out of my primary living situation. I left the suburban condo and found a hermitage in the country. And now I rebuild.

Chop wood. Carry water. Dump compost.

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Santa Fe Osho Satsang.

I did it! I officially started an Osho Group in Santa Fe. When I think of all the different things that I can do to share tools for the expansion of consciousness and liberation from the limited thinking, I feel that my best offering is to share Osho Active Meditations. This is one of my passions.

Starting in November, I will be hosting Osho Satsang at the house where I live with Michael. The space is beautiful. It is my intention to bring people together who are moving into the shifting frequencies that Osho and other visionaries mention. I expect that both Sannyasin and people new to Osho will attend. Osho had a vision of people creating many buddhafields around the planet. It is my intention to be of service to that vision.

I'm inspired by friends who currently hold tantra groups that include Osho meditation. It is their inspiration that is catalyst for my decision to create an Osho Satsang in Santa Fe, NM.

http://www.meetup.com/Santa-Fe-Osho-Satsang/

Santa Fe

This blog post is a response to ravenisclumsy. I do not know if he is aware that I'm following his blog as a female stalker. I'm harmless.

The natural lighting in Santa Fe is seductive. It continues to draw me back to the city, even though each time I depart, I think I set an intention to not return. Wherever I travel, I try to find the unique way the light refracts its own unique quality to the area. But somehow, Santa Fe's lighting seems to have entrained me.

Even though I think that I am more surrounded by community in Palm Springs or in Stevens Point, I continue to travel to New Mexico to be with Naked Michael. I made a decision to return to be his regular primary partner. That decision involves other levels of involvement in the area. Michael is vigorously working at creating a tantric community. I hope to enhance that by starting an Osho group.

I expect to start an Osho meditation and book group at Michael's house. We can use the basement area to perform active meditations, such as Dynamic Meditation, Kundalini Meditation, The Nadabrahma Meditations, No Dimensions (my personal favorite), and the Chakra Breathing. We can have book group discussions based on Osho discourse, or do a group study on The Book of Secrets. Since there are big screen televisions at the house, we can watch Osho DVDs and have discussion on topics related to the presentation.

Osho's vision is to create not only a buddafield, but to create meditations based on the new frequencies of inner science for an outer world. This group will be a way to connect with other Osho followers. We can continue the whirling of transformation. In this group, we can explore the science of breathwork in relation to our active meditations and our daily work lives.

""The real person needs no proof for God.
He comes to know God from the experience of inner power,
from his inner glow." ~Osho~

It is my intention to create a tantric group through the spirit of our beloved Osho. I know that the unique quality of light is responsible for seducing me to return to Santa Fe. But it is not just the daytime lighting that calls me. It is the night time light of the stars that entrain me to sleep with them. I return with a purpose, and to be nurtured by my Beloved Michael, the thin air, and the light of many stars

When stars wheel
Around the North Pole,
They are longing for our growing consciousness.
~~Rumi~~

Snowing In October

Last week, I was picking apples in the sunshine. My body felt energized and filled with anticipation of the changing weather. Today, Wednesday, I'm feeling quite the opposite, especially since I already have witnessed two days of snowfall this week.

Since I plan to stay indoors most of the day, I will work on making kimchi for the Central Rivers Farmshed Potluck social. I'm also going to make the hot dish that my friend Michael loves, a Daisy Meal. It is a one-dish meal made with steamed brown rice, locally grown beef with simmered onions, and finely chopped fresh broccoli & shredded carrots. The broccoli & carrots are added at the end of cooking so that the residual heat from the beef gently wilts the fresh, raw veggies.

As long as I'll be indoors, I'll juice some apples. It looks like having a snow day is not so bad.

Hey! What's this? I just looked up and the snow ceased falling. It's not even raining!

Since I was a child, I would hear people say this about Wisconsin weather: If you don't like the weather, wait five minutes; it will change.

The weather has changed but my plans remain the same, except for the walk I will take this afternoon.

OM Shanti
AUM